In
Titanic, Rose Dawson remarks, "I saw my whole life as if I'd already lived it. An endless parade of parties and cotillions, yachts and polo matches."
But is all life just endless repetition?
In high school, I thought (and everyone told me) I could just work hard to get into a good college and then I could relax. Well not really relax, but you get the sense that things will be less stressful.
These days I'm applying to internship positions and it eerily mimics college apps. There are the reaches and the good fits (unfortunately there aren't any safeties). It's slightly different from college apps, but it's the same stress…the same dreadful sense that your future happiness hangs in the balance.
After college it will be job applications. And a job is your career - the launch of your adult life. Work experience seems even more significant to your future than internships and education.
And after your in a job, you'll probably be trying to find a better job, or a promotion in the job you're in. Always trying to climb the mandatory ladder of life.
I see my whole life as if I've already lived it. An endless parade of applications, stress, grey hairs, and unattainable fulfillment.
I don't really see what's wrong with the parties and yachts.
P.S. All of this thought comes from a smaller instance of repetition. I am on winter break from college, and I have a set routine that starts at night: I watch HBO Go and play Trivia Crack until 2A.M. when I go to sleep. I set a slew of alarms from 10A.M. to 12P.M. because otherwise I wouldn't ever wake up. I then slowly make the transition to the shower and the TV downstairs and spend the rest of my day applying for internships and seeking out some form of a meal.
This lengthy winter break is torturously monotonous, and it leaves my brain mountains of time to overthink life...